Friday, August 19, 2011

On that note, I should give you a heads up that a couple months ago I drunkenly mentioned the Florence blog to Arthur, which is probably what he's referring to. I'm sorry :(

Anyway, good response! But I think it's better not to waste your breath.
For some reason we forgot that friendship is not supposed to be like this. Our friends don't exist so that we can constantly struggle for their approval and wonder what they're saying about us behind our backs. Everyone talks shit about everyone and no one is safe. It's hard not to get caught up in.
My logic for ending our friendship was that if you have a lot of bad things to say about someone that you can't say to their face, then a healthy, functional friendship is not possible. Of course I eventually realized that the root of my animosity towards you was a pleasant mixture of insanity and preoccupation with the past, but in terms of everyone else...well, the phrase "let go" carries a lot of weight.
I've heard a lot of people say a lot of things about you, and I'm embarrassed to say that I participated.
I was never that person, and I don't know why I waited until adulthood to become that person. But I learned a lot from reflecting on how I was acting. After you directly told me you did not cheat on Steve I should have taken it on your good faith for two reasons:
1. you're my friend
(and most importantly) 2. it's none of my god damn business!
The stupid thing is, if these people were actually concerned about you cheating on Steve, they would have told Steve instead of EVERYONE ELSE. Your alleged infidelity really just became a source of entertainment rather than a source of moral high ground.
Someone ought to write a book on the principles of friendship. What these people have created is closer to a circle of critics than a circle of friends.

You used to be one of my favorite people, before all the bad things happened, and then you were one of my least favorite people and I treated you like a used condom. But I can safely say that in the past few weeks you have been restored to the position of "one of my favorite people" because I finally remembered what was so great about our friendship and more importantly what was so great about you.
My retrotransformed definition of friendship: pumpkin carving, haunted houses, movie nights, hibachi grills, shared love of things like puppies and wine, pot luck, philosophical drivel, exploration (not sexual), cooking, marshmallows roasting in the open fire, honesty, macaroni and cheese, christmas.

These people are only weighing you down. The world is so much bigger and greater than all of them.

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